…ten months later – spring

by christy on November 15, 2010

…continued from “…ten months later – winter”

Astoria apartment in the spring

Lovely evening! Headed 2 park w/ Max, Queens folk smiling, neighbor w/ pit bulls blaring Metallica & thanking God I don’t live right by ’em!

March 18, 2010 12:00:57 PM HST via Twitterrific

View from Astoria Park, where I took you all the time

Nowhere I’d rather be than NYC in the spring; toddlers @ the park, moms taking iPhone photos, Harleys blaring 70s tunes, lunch on sidewalks.

March 19, 2010 8:23:48 AM HST via Twitterrific

Flatiron Building (used to pass all the time, by my shrink's office)

Empire State Building from Madison Park

The fountain at Madison Park

Just a beautiful day (and a cool iPhone photo app!)

I truly love New York City. If your daddy and I ever get rich, we want to have one home on Maui, one in New York!

Watching the health care bill signing ceremony. Max is clapping with everyone on the screen. :)

March 23, 2010 5:32:31 AM HST via Twitterrific

Got a dual membership to Museum of Natural History today. Anyone wanna go? After spring break, though. CRAZZZY crowded now!

March 30, 2010 3:31:26 PM HST via Twitterrific

My husband just took our son to get his iPad. Then I saw a photo of the line online. Uh oh. Please pray my baby doesn’t get trampled! :)

April 3, 2010 6:03:20 AM HST via Twitterrific

Looking so thrilled to be in your Easter suit!

He is risen!!!

April 4, 2010 3:19:08 AM HST via Twitterrific

On the train to church on Easter - the most beautiful blue eyes ever!

84 degrees today! Getting our playgrounding in early; may actually install a/c today.

April 7, 2010 4:38:19 AM HST via Twitterrific

DeNiro movie shooting by my shrink’s office. Could go be a drooling fangirl after, but have to buy my baby stuff before BRB closes. Hmm…

April 7, 2010 11:49:10 AM HST via Twitterrific

Luv how extreme weather always seems to bring a community together. & luv walking home at 8:30PM in tank & skirt and stll hot. Hit 90 today!

April 7, 2010 2:30:49 PM HST via Twitterrific

Randa and Kathy and Lucy, my Astoria mamas I miss dearly!

Your first playdate friends, minus Judah :(

Kathy and Lucy and Selma

Most New Yorky deli ever All construction workers, cops & firefighters with heavy NYC accents. All super nice to Max & I. LOVE IT!!!

April 12, 2010 7:00:49 AM HST via Twitterrific

Shopping on 34th. Must coninually tell self “don’t slap a tourist, don’t slap a tourist”. My fault 4 shopping 1 block from Empire St Bldg.

April 15, 2010 12:20:40 PM HST via Twitterrific

Another major milestone: Max pooped in the tub 4 the 1st time. Unfortunately was J bathing him while I laughed – & ultimately cleaned up. :)

April 18, 2010 4:46:50 PM HST via Twitterrific

Oh snap! Al Pacino/Tracy Morgan movie filming a few blocks from our home. Guess who’s going to be camping out on Ditmars & 31st!

April 20, 2010 7:24:10 AM HST via Twitterrific

You on the train

Pacino’s movie still filming by our stop. Saw crew, heard yelling on platform & thought it was him in scene. Was just some angry drunk. :(

April 22, 2010 7:23:57 AM HST via Twitterrific

View from our train stop

Haha, think I just stalled a scene on the set. Paused to peak while talking on the phone-I tend to be loud. Soon as I was done, they rolled.

April 22, 2010 10:27:13 AM HST via Twitterrific

The rumors are true: the Powers are moving to Maui, Hawaii. But, 5/30-6/7 in Chicago, 6/7-6/14 in Grass Valley, 6/14-6/27 in Seattle. Aloha!

April 22, 2010 10:50:57 AM HST via Twitterrific

We realized there were reasons to visit each of our families on the way to Maui. So we planned to spend a week in Chicago (during which I had a bad upper respiratory infection and slept nearly the whole time, going out, I believe, once), a week in Grass Valley (which was very hot! But great fun to see everyone, including a pregnant aunt Sarah!), and 2 weeks in Seattle (because grandma Snider knew we’d spend so much time with our friends that we needed to book more time so we could spend some with her!). It was great but exhausting. We may never do that again. Now it’s up to them to visit us here!

Bouts to see A Behanding In Spokane w/ Christopher Walken & Sam Rockwell. Woot! #d8nite

April 24, 2010 1:29:44 PM HST via Twitterrific

"A Behanding in Spokane"

Awesome play! & saw Dustin Hoffman chatting w/ friends on the sidewalk. Now tapas at Pipa. My hubby loves me! #d8nite

April 24, 2010 4:15:16 PM HST via Twitterrific

Feeling the excitement of NYC as my 1st time. Just need to forget am going to cavities filled & shopping in SoHo later! :)

April 27, 2010 4:34:00 AM HST via Twitterrific

It’s here! Jason’s iPad app, ScrapPad-a fun scrapbooking app-now live in the app store! http://tinyurl.com/34beyla 5 star reviews welcome :)

April 30, 2010 4:16:09 PM HST via Twitterrific

ScrapPad page

Your daddy is so much better at scrapbooking than I...

Looks like we found homes for both cats. Seattle kitty going to Brooklyn, Brooklyn kitty to L.A. Now for one last nap with Nezzie. :(

May 7, 2010 6:36:56 AM HST via Twitterrific

Our Nezzie, who Jason adopted the day of our 1st date. She's got a great new home in Brooklyn now.

Sweetie, our 3-legged kitty who we adopted after Dignan, Nezzie's bro died. Adopted my our friend Steve.

Max just flirted with Mary Lynn Rajskub (of 24) over Mothers’ Day brunch at Caravan of Dreams. And of course she flirted back. :)

May 9, 2010 7:26:39 AM HST via Twitterrific

I am an awesome mom. Not because of my parenting skillz but because I put on liquid eyeliner perfectly while Max hung off & wiggled my leg.

May 11, 2010 9:58:22 AM HST via Twitterrific

My son is so freaking adorable with the most gentle, generous spirit and the biggest heart! Want more of him!!!

May 14, 2010 11:54:27 AM HST via Twitterrific

I can’t remember exactly why I posted this. But you are so adorable, and you have such a giving spirit! Well, as much as a toddler can. :)

How could I be too depressed when I get to see this face each day?

Ever so blissful 3 sets of friends came to spend time w/ us esp. Ebony & Larry from Philly! Wish next 2 wks could just be hanging out.

May 16, 2010 1:11:18 PM HST via Twitterrific

Ebony and I (I hate/love this pic because I've lost tons of weight since then!)

I met Ebony online when I was in Germany back in 2001. I met her in person for the first time in New York in 2007 or so. We only saw each other in person a couple times, but she’s a great friend, and always in my heart. She is engaged to Larry and they’re getting married in November. Was really sad to leave before their wedding, but glad I finally got to meet Larry!  I’m sure we’ll see them on Maui sooner than later, too.

You and Larry

Dismantling everything that belongs to my young son in the place of his birth; selling/giving away/storing 90% of it. Not depressing at all!

May 17, 2010 4:58:15 AM HST via web

If at first the idea is not absurd, then there is no hope for it. – Albert Einstein

May 18, 2010 2:56:13 PM HST via Twitterrific

Sitting down with hubby for last new Tuesday night #LOST ever. Bittersweet. Mostly bitter. :(

May 18, 2010 2:57:05 PM HST via Twitterrific

With Randa and Selma at the zoo

You were totally unafraid to feed the animals. So cool!

Just got back from Central Pk Zoo with one of my favorite mamas, Randa, and Salma. Max fed the sheep, goats, and llama. LOVED IT!

May 20, 2010 11:20:03 AM HST via web

Our last get-together. I barely held it together.

Getting depressed bout leaving. But hubby has week off, friends lending us minivan to haul away stuff, & got my vitamin D at tanning salon.

May 23, 2010 8:08:38 AM HST via Twitterrific

Going to attempt to sleep now. LOST finale, last days of packing before leaving NY. Feeling a wee bit, incredibly overwhelmed and sad. :(

May 23, 2010 7:23:06 PM HST via Twitterrific

Moving sale signs

Packing. Donating. Selling. Shipping. Cleaning. Headache. Sick baby. Overworked hubby. Maximum stress. No mo’ a/c…. Napping.

May 26, 2010 9:44:46 AM HST via Twitterrific

Walking one of my regular routes for probably the last time ever whilst listening to Empire State of Mind. Fitting. But trying not to cry.

May 26, 2010 2:08:45 PM HST via Twitterrific

Just a typical street I used to walk down in NYC

Reading a sign that says “Baby Lamb – Baby Goat – Baby Pig”. It’s the Steinway Meat Factory. My son just fed baby goats and lambs. :(

May 28, 2010 9:45:39 AM HST via Twitterrific

Max enjoying the last of our furniture & entertainment. Final day of packing before the big move! http://yfrog.com/eli9qj via @jayjaypowpow

May 29, 2010 3:53:06 AM HST via Twitterrific

You and the last of your furniture

Moving sucks.

May 29, 2010 11:35:06 AM HST via Twitterrific

The day we left, Kieran and Monica, your first favorite auntie and uncle

We had a going-away party the night before we left.  We stayed with uncle Kieran and aunt Monica that night, you and I, while daddy finished packing and tossing and sorting items for donation. You couldn’t handle how empty the apartment was. All of your baby furniture went to a family of refugees and most of our stuff we donated to Salvation Army or Randa, who was due with a boy a month after we left. The day we left was the most difficult. I began sobbing when we had to say goodbye to Kieran and Monica. Randa came and hugged me and I sobbed on her. I was just drained.

To be continued…


…ten months later – winter

by christy on November 14, 2010

Dear Max,

It has been 10 months since I’ve written. That was a lifetime ago! 10 months ago I was sitting in our Astoria, Queens apartment. It would have been cold and I wouldn’t have wanted to go outside much. But I was going out as often as possible with my friends, hanging out at our apartments or cafes or wherever we could go and not freeze.

Today I’m sitting on our couch looking out at our yard. There’s a sunken sailboat to the side. In front of it is our hammock, and we’ve got an outdoor living set, as well. Beyond that is lush greenery for a ways out, and then the ocean. We were in one of the busiest cities in the world, surrounded by everything one could want. Now we are in the most remote part of the world, living on Maui, Hawaii. So much has happened that it overwhelms me. So instead of trying to write everything out, I’ll instead post my major tweets (I wonder how ancient Twitter will seem to you by the time you can read this?).

About to experience Christmas cheer overload. Flying to Cali, Max mtg Grandparents Powers for 1st time, we meeting Sarah’s fiancee 1st time!

December 24, 2009 9:53:43 AM HST via web

Christmas with the Powers Family

Always a good time with this family!

And so excited to be in Sarah and Matt’s wedding in March! Another trip to Cali, get to play dress-up, and see them joined for life! :)

December 28, 2009 5:05:24 PM HST via Twitterrific

It was January 1st that I took a pregnancy test and it came out positive. With you it was utter shock that I was pregnant. When I took this one, I sat and waited for the little line to turn pink, affirming my suspicions. Not that there was really any sign other than a sore throat and feeling a little wiped out. We called our family and told them, and around your birthday told many of our friends. We wanted prayer, since I was particularly scared about postpartum depression rearing again.

Dressed up to go out in the snow. You could hardly move!

Luv that a sweet old man stopped us -in the x-walk- to wave at Max & smile, then yelled “go ahead & cross, get the hell out of the x-walk!”

January 8, 2010 7:57:07 AM HST via Twitterrific

My baby was borned one year ago today! Have been some very rough times, but I wouldn’t trade him for the world! Happy birthday Max Powers!!!

January 13, 2010 1:36:02 AM HST via Twitterrific

You on your birthday with the hat everyone made fun of me for buying - but I love it!

Grandma and Grandpa Snider and aunt Jenny came to visit for a week over your birthday. You were horribly sick on your actual birthday, but were happy and healthy for your birthday party that Saturday.

Max totally sick for his birthday. :( At least he has grandma & grandpa Snider & auntie Jenny are in town, and party Saturday!

January 13, 2010 4:48:21 PM HST via Twitterrific

Your 1st birthday cake. I made it myself - had a Noah's Ark theme

We had you rip into the "1", of course

Opening one of your presents

I don’t know why we didn’t take more photos, but this YouTube video was part of your uncle Dave’s vlog. It features you’re birthday! Super-Duper 1st Birthday For Max Powers!

You, Grandma, and Grandpa Snider after your party

You and Aunt Jenny on your visit to NYC

Sad my mama & family left. :( But thankful they were here, & for those who came yesterday to give love to my most precious son!

January 17, 2010 6:29:18 AM HST via Twitterrific

We all went to the doctor for an ultrasound. I was about 7 weeks pregnant. But when the doctor looked, everything was there… except the baby. No heartbeat.  The doctor said it was possible it was too early to tell, but I was pretty sure it was gone. I cried a bit in the office.

Thought we’d have exciting news 2 share 2day. +preggo test 3 wks ago, today found out nothing’s growing in there. Not God’s time yet. :(

January 21, 2010 3:43:59 PM HST via web

Cheesy tweet: loving my friends & family, watching Sesame St w/ Max, and planning my trip to Florida in 2-1/2 weeks for r&r w/ Elizabeth!

January 22, 2010 5:06:06 AM HST via Twitterrific

An earthquake devastated  Haiti.  Such a sad thing for a nation already full of poverty that hasn’t been given much of a break.

Trying to get through to #HopeForHaitiNow.org – glad the lines are full! Call 1-877-994-2484

January 22, 2010 3:52:11 PM HST via web

Should clarify there’s a *chance* I’m still pregnant, but the Dr’s not optimistic. Feel free to pray for a miracle so we can point to Jesus!

January 23, 2010 10:10:08 AM HST via Twitterrific

But if I’m not, we know that our God is a God of life, and He WILL answer our prayers as He sees fit. No matter what, we can point to Jesus!

January 23, 2010 10:26:29 AM HST via Twitterrific

This one was actually taken in March, but fits the tweet below well. :)

Jason to Max: “You have all these toys and you’re playing with a diaper and a bra… is this foreshadowing of your wild days to come?”

January 23, 2010 1:42:35 PM HST via web

Max just took his 1st 5 steps in a row. It was a magical moment. For @jayjaypowpow. I was on the toilet. 😛 But we filmed his next 50+. :)

January 24, 2010 4:13:12 PM HST via Twitterrific

Here’s the YouTube video of Max’s First Steps!

You are now running around, such a little boy!

No baby in my belly, d&c mañana to remove dead tissue. God is good, no need to feel sorry for us. Max will get a sibling in due time.

January 27, 2010 9:26:05 AM HST via Twitterrific

Because I wasn’t pregnant, but there was dead tissue and a placenta and yolk sac still growing, I had the option of waiting to see if it came out on it’s own or having a D&C done (an abortion, except there was nothing to abort, just pulling out everything out). I opted for the D&C because you and I were going to visit Elizabeth and Judah in Florida less than 2 weeks later, and I didn’t want to risk going to a Florida ER.

Plus, 4 friends had babies last night. How can I be too sad when there’s so much life? Congrats Katy & Kristian, Heather & Owen!

January 27, 2010 9:39:21 AM HST via Twitterrific

The 4 snowflakes on the ground were definitely worth every news outlet using most of their airtime to warn us about the huge snow storm. 😛

February 6, 2010 6:07:26 AM HST via Twitterrific

Astoria, your first home

One of our regular walks

Been worried because Max doesn’t like to eat his vegetables. Then J pointed out I don’t like to eat mine, & I spend all day with him. D’oh!

February 6, 2010 4:48:38 PM HST via web

Leaving on a jet plane. Taking my baby 2 Florida 4 the week 2 play with his 1st best bud, Judah, & I 2 play w/ 1 of my best buds, Elizabeth!

February 8, 2010 7:43:51 AM HST via Twitterrific

Me, Max, Judah, Liz

Max charged up & down aisle of plane, a wave of people turned 2 smile as he waved & stopped 2 talk. One lady said he should be president. :)

February 8, 2010 1:25:00 PM HST via Twitterrific

Experiencing some crazy awesome southern hospitality! About to eat a meal with 12 people at the table, asked if I wanted to ride a horse. :)

February 9, 2010 12:49:07 PM HST via Twitterrific

Heading to Shephard’s Beach Resort @ Clearwater Beach, apparently THE party place in Central FL. With toddlers. Beer bongs and baby bongs!!!

February 10, 2010 7:41:24 AM HST via Twitterrific

Going to bed, knocked lamp over. Glass & drink everywhere. Woke Max. He screamed. Woke Judah. Both screaming. Glass still everywhere. Ugh.

February 10, 2010 7:03:48 PM HST via Twitterrific

We had a great time with Liz and Judah. Spent a few days at her hometown in central Florida. Her family was amazing, did great cooking for us. They own a bed and breakfast, have horses, etc. So easy to talk to. Liz and I took you and Judah to Clearwater Beach, a cute little tourist town. We were hoping for some R&R. We hadn’t thought of how the two of us with our two kids would be like each of us being a single mom together. It was also very cold – something we weren’t entirely prepared for. Nonetheless, seeing Liz and her family was amazing, and you and Judah had a great time. We took advantage of the buffet at the beach, picking out all the grapes and strawberries for you and Judah. It was the off-season at the party hotel we were at, so we didn’t have to worry about any spring break craziness. :)

We got home February 13th, so I could spend Valentines Day with your daddy. Your uncle Dave babysat you.

Times Square on Valentines Day

Just got back from an A-Maze-Ing dinner at The View, a revolving restaraunt on 48th floor over Times Square. My love done did goooood!

February 14, 2010 6:08:23 PM HST via Twitterrific

The little bump that you were born with, your “horn”, as we called it, was scheduled to be removed February 16th. It was scary seeing my baby go into surgery, even though I knew it would be ok.

Realized that Max’s horn removal is at 6AM tomorrow. Feel like someone hit my panic button. Simple procedure, but my baby’s having surgery!

February 15, 2010 11:15:57 AM HST via web

Wish my waiting room had been so cool! http://yfrog.com/au175wj

February 16, 2010 1:13:11 AM HST via Twitterrific

Before surgery. You were drugged up here gooood.

Just lay my son on the surgical table until he fell asleep. In the cafeteria to keep my mind off it. E. River view: http://yfrog.com/2eptuij

February 16, 2010 3:04:00 AM HST via Twitterrific

You just wanted to be held by Daddy

Max is out, doing great! Was just a little cyst. Wanted daddy. :) http://yfrog.com/331jrdlj

February 16, 2010 3:57:44 AM HST via Twitterrific

Hardest Lent ever: giving up TV (excepting LOST on Tuesdays). But more time to spend with God, excited to read and cleaning house!

February 17, 2010 2:00:38 PM HST via Twitterrific

Slept in my pajamas last night. Wore them all day. Wearing them tonight. 36+ hours, and don’t feel a bit bad about it today!

February 17, 2010 6:56:10 PM HST via web

Suddenly missing Seattle a ton. :(

February 19, 2010 4:19:14 PM HST via web

The end of February, I believe the 26th, uncle Dave moved back to California and we had a going-away dinner at Johns Pizza in Times Square.  That night your daddy and I sat down to discuss where we wanted to live. We’d been thinking about California and Seattle, WA, even Portland, OR. But the more we talked, the more we realized we really wanted to live in Hawaii. So we made the decision that night to do it. I then did a lot of research, deciding between Oahu, where we could live near Honolulu, and Maui. We decided on Maui. We told our families and some of our closest friends. We waited the longest to tell some of our closest friends in New York because we knew how upset some would be, and wanted to preserve good times untainted by the knowledge we would soon be leaving. It was especially hard because the day we decided to go was the day I met my amazing friend, Michelle. Fortunately she’s just an amazing human being with 3 boys (and now a girl on the way!) and has lived on Oahu, so she was always so supportive and we hung out often before we left.

What BRILLIANT (and, imo, HOT!) designer created this infographic, now #5 on digg.com, but is being shy about it? http://tinyurl.com/yzvn8hj

February 22, 2010 6:39:10 PM HST via web

Been giving my son carrot juice cut with fruit juice. Turns out he loves it straight. Eww! :)

March 1, 2010 7:49:46 AM HST via Twitterrific

You and I went to California on our own for almost a week. Your Papa and Nana Kyllo were visiting friends out in Roseville, so we stayed with them for a few nights. Then Grandma and Grandpa Powers came to have dinner with us all, and took you and I back to Grass Valley with them. We got to relax – and I got to sleep in while grandma got you up most mornings! – and help get ready for your aunt Sarah and uncle Matt’s wedding. Daddy joined us a couple days before. I was a bridesmaid, and you were just adorable. You danced on the dance floor and at one point a circle of people formed with you in the center, clapping. You were in your own world. Once you realized everyone was watching you, though, you ran away, scared.

Another solo trip with my baby. Laguardia to Houston to Sacramento. Max is teething and we have window seats. Oy! Prayer needed!!! :)

March 4, 2010 6:01:17 AM HST via web

Dear God, thank you for available aisle seats! No thanks for the loud flight attendant who awoke Max after an hour! Boo.

March 4, 2010 1:16:34 PM HST via Twitterrific

You with Papa taking a nap - and you never conk out like this!

We got Nana and Papa together with the Powers' family. Good times.

Papa and Grandpa

Sarah's wedding day!

Us at Sarah's wedding (I was honored to be a bridesmaid!)

You and I at Sarah's wedding

Back after whirlwind trip to Cali. Family, mo family, wedding prep, marrying off sis-in-law, looong plane rides. Good times.

March 18, 2010 5:41:51 AM HST via Twitterrific

To be continued…


a year of you

December 24, 2009

My dearMax, I had started a draft yet am unable to locate it. I was posting photos of your first holidays, but it wasn’t looking quite right.  So instead, here I’ll give some highlights of 2009, the year you came into my life and made your daddy and I a complete family:

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the itsy bitsy spider climbed up the spout again

October 29, 2009

Dear Max, I need to finish up this story so I can get on to other things! Tomorrow we head to Maui for ten days and your first Thanksgiving! So that Wednesday morning I sat in the cafeteria, reading Brooke Shields’ Down Came The Rain: My Journey Through Postpartum Depression that Sam’s husband had brought […]

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inauguration day: a new era for the country, for you and i

October 21, 2009

Dear Max, Tuesday, January, 20, 2009, was inauguration day for President Obama. As that realization hit me in the shower, I began to cry. Your Daddy and I had been so excited about this day, friends were down in Washington D.C., going to Times Square, etc. And I was stuck in the hospital, definitely not […]

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love on m.l.k. day

October 21, 2009

Dear Max, When I awoke that Monday morning, it was MLK day, so we still had weekend visiting hours of 3:00-7:00PM. I was frustrated that I had been told, when I checked in, that I would just be here two or three days so I could sleep and become myself again. It became evident this […]

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the gift of God

October 14, 2009

Dear Max, I’ve started writing the next entry in the saga about my life in the psych ward, but I wanted to interrupt myself to explain to you, and anyone who might be following along, what we believe. Of course by the time you’re old enough to read and truly understand this, hopefully your daddy […]

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flying into the cuckoo’s nest

October 10, 2009

Dear Max, We were buzzed through the door into the psychiatric ward. The hallway was long, wide, and eerily quiet, being 1AM. Despite my puffy red eyes, I attempted to wipe away the tears and look somewhat composed. I know when I spoke, however, that I probably sounded like an ashamed child who’s been put […]

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mama, interrupted

October 4, 2009

Dear Max, There are so many things I planned for before you were born. I’d taken care of many children, in a day care center, school, summer camp for the disabled, as a babysitter and a nanny. I was pretty confident in how I wanted to raise you and knew what you needed. I spent […]

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mommy & daddy’s story

October 4, 2009

Dear Max, Someday you will want to know how mommy and daddy met. This is how it happened. Your daddy, and I were both registered on Match.com, an internet dating site. We were both looking for a Christian partner, but that person had to be special. We both needed someone that was very into art, […]

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